It's
1-22-2013. I'm bad. But at least I haven't given up! It's lunch
time and I have to get back to work. More later. Alright, it's 8:10
PM and I have two days worth of pages to write! I just want to say
that I have nothing against you go-getter types. It's just that I
don't go to your management or executive interviews and try to take
your job from you. Yeah, it's sorta like that. Okay, now that we're
all friends again. Yesterday, I was too busy to get any writing
done, except for the last page above, which I should have written the
night before. Soooo, I woke up and wrote the 1-20-2013 page. Then,
I went to visit my brother, sister-in-law, two nieces, and nephew and
spent all day there. We had nachos and spaghetti and pie and I
enjoyed a vodka drink or many and we played Dibs (a board game) and
listened to music and had a great old time. I left there around 8 or
9 PM and went home where my roommate had a couple of friends over
with whom I had to play Beatles Trivial Pursuit (I won!) and enjoy
another vodka drink or many. I didn't get to bed 'til like 2 AM and
then had to wake up at 6:30 AM for work. I'm telling you all this to
explain why I couldn't get today's page done until tomorrow, which is
actually now, when I'm writing this. I'm running on four hours of
sleep and yawning like a cow, but I'm an adult and I WILL FINISH MY
HOMEWORK! Anywho, I'm gonna wake up with a hangover and stomach
cramps tomorrow. Remember? I know this because I'm in the future.
And I'm gonna be in a shitty, depressed, can't-give-a-fuck mood for
most of the day. I need a new drug. I used to smoke weed, which I
loved, but I quit because I was job hunting (drug screens), but
there's nothing out there, so I want to smoke again, even if once in
a while. The only reason left that I don't is because it makes me
eat like a cow. Losing weight/keeping weight off is hard enough
without “appetite overdrive” if you know what I mean. So,
instead, I've been drinking more, which is fun, too. Not as
fun, but better than nothing. The only problem here is it's kind of
starting to make me sick to where I'm kind of getting over the whole
drinking thing. I don't know why I drink to excess anyway. I feel
as good as I'm going to by the fourth or fifth drink, so I might as
well stop there. I think it has something to do with wanting to hold
onto that last little dirty vice. I stopped overeating (most of the
time), and stopped smoking weed and cigarettes. It's like alcohol,
especially vodka, is my last little security blanket. But it's not
good for me and my body is starting to tell me so. I've been
thinking of going back to coffee. There was a time I drank it
everyday, but I haven't had it in years. I wonder if I have a coffee
maker out in the garage. It would be nice not to have to buy a new
one.
I'm
gonna go paragraphs. I had considered and declined the notion
earlier, but I've changed my mind. I was going to go back and
paragraphize everything back to the beginning, but then I thought
that would, like, ruin the documentation of the moment – the
snapshot in history, if you will. Plus, it will make the page I have
to fill approximately three to five lines shorter. So I'm still
wondering what to do with this stuff. I might just start a blog with
it and then maybe put it together in a book form after a year? I
still don't know why anyone would want it in book form if it's
available online. Would we take the blog offline when the book came
out? But wouldn't people have already made copies of it somewhere
else on the internet. What I'm trying to say is that I don't know
how this stuff works. It's funny how all this speculation assumes a
fanbase of some kind. LOL. Yes, that was a real LOL.
I
just woke up from passing out at the keyboard. No, no drinking
tonight, in case you were wondering. I neeeeed to sleeeeep! Fuck
it. I ny nys!
Now,
it's 1-23-2013 and I'm still writing 1-21's page. It's my day off
and I'm playing Sims 3, the satellite TV's not working, and I'm
soaking French toast in the refrigerator – needs about another hour
or two. I can't wait, because I'm so hungry!
Another thing, since I'm letting myself NOT finish a page a day and
am continuing it the following day (although I am REALLY trying),
I've decided it's okay to go on to the next page if I have more to
say and run out of room. It makes sense. As long as I'm averaging a
page a day, the spirit of the law is kept, in that I'm being equally
productive over time. Alrighty. Time to start yesterday's page.
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