1-31-2013

      So, now that blog time has caught up with real time, I don't care about making sure I have an entry for every calendar day. As Arthur, with a bit of a slur, would say, “Fuck it!” And since we're not worrying about that anymore and each post is already dated, I might just start giving each entry an actual title from now on. Not right now. Probably after this one. On with the show...

      Here's what I don't get. Why is she suddenly all I think about? I mean, I have no idea either way of course, but I've had a feeling that maybe maybe MAYBE she has been into me for awhile now. Again, it might just all be in my head (give me credit for at least recognizing that as a possibility), but my point is that I've been thinking that for many months now, but it is just recently that she is all I think about. I try to look at it scientifically? Like “Stimulus → Response” or “Question → Answer” or “Hypothesis → Established Theory” (I've been drinking, so don't correct me, or you're an asshole). Is it because she had a conversation with me that wasn't completely circumstantial (like ringing up my groceries or running into each other where we clock in and out), but required some effort on her part to initiate and I found that endearing? Logically (is it?), I can look at that conversation and say to myself, “She merely saw someone with whom she has had light, friendly conversations in the past, short as they might have been, and thought it a nice diversion to engage in a little conversation, again, at this time, with someone whom she knew would be friendly and may have had a little knowledge of the subject in which she had an interest and was thinking about at the time.” Why am I writing out all of these thoughts? I'm writing them out to show how focused and crazy my silly little mind is all of a sudden!